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I just can't bring myself coming into this blog to write any journals....everytime i start writing i will tend to reminds me of the past..remember the days i have with him....i haven't complete my journal that day .......felt totally sad when writing halfway so i publish half of it and i unable to bring myself to complete it.....had a very sad evening when all the memories juz flow into my mind easily and reminding of the missing sweetness i used to have.....i'm totally tired abt it but juz can't help myself into thinking.......
People around me keep telling me is good that this thing ends early as there is no future to it but i was juz telling them can't things end it properly? why must it end it so bluntly? and hurts me so deep......this is the deepest emotions i have put ever and now i got hurt the deepest when he is so heartless to it........when he scold me, have he ever consider abt my feelings before he do that?........haiz........life is so meaningless....all i know is to convert all my sadness into motivation in working.....work so hard for wat but juz to do myself harm?.......
I'm great that during this period of time, there is a person came into my life to hold me back.....i'm so grateful that he appears in that moment becoz if not i'm will not be here writing any more journals already....i always remember that nite........i got so sad that he mention to break off with me and i was so lost at that moment and immediately travel all the way to his house area as i'm so lost.......at that moment i really thought of doing things foolishly and luckily this person know abt it becoz he was toking to me before the things happened.......then after it happen, he heard my attitude totally a big changed and he so worried abt me........he kept calling my hp through the nite but i refuse to pick up until late at nite 10+ i still outside in the east side......then i decided to pick up and he keep consoling me and talk me round not to do things foolishly as he will never forgive on my doings.....i'm so grateful to him but too bad he is a attached guy...so no point continuing with him as i told myself becoz i'm going to hurt myself again.....i can say i pour all my sorrows to him and i'm so weak now........my emotions r totally exhuasted now......i can say if something gonna happen again i think death will be the only way for me already.......i'm so tired of life already.......things r not going smoothly for me everytime........or maybe it serve me right as i choose it myself........first time with a girl then got hurt and then i turn to a guy......now with a guy and got hurt again
who can i turn to now? i think no one i can turn to and when then i can find a person which can treasure me lots? issit a guy or a girl? or none? hoping it is none as i'm so tired of it already.....i really scared of communicating with this person too long as i will fall for him...i'm a person that fall in love easily....i keep telling myself he is attached but he is way too concern for me already and i'm scared....i juz wan to hide at one corner and let everyone ignore me.......journal oh journal......so much sweet memories in here archives.......luckily there is no pics or else i sure cry till i die..........i'm such a emotional guy.......when i'm in love i will put in everything truthfully for that person.......sometimes people juz dun appreciate ur true love for that person.......haiz.......issit really true that true love never ever exist in the world?....i always believe in giving everything for the loved one but has the loved one appreciate and give u the same?i dun mind the person not to give back the same but at least appreciate it........
